An atheist brahmin...

I contemplated on writing blogs as a hobby but here I am, genuinely looking for some rational views and not really worried about the fame, humorous poetic and soothing words. To start off, I may have a poor English vocabulary but that doesn't wary me from putting my point across. This is an honest take on things each one of us face and if you are looking for some fiction, you probably may not like all of this.

Never really had I thought that I would become so self esteemed until Summer 2015. This realization came through meeting a colleague in my internship. Thinking how awkward my thoughts may sound to others, I was intimidated with almost everything until then. I am sure many of us have stigmas which keep bothering all the time. When I look back, I see all the conscience efforts I put in to survive the hypocritical world.

Imagine an innocent child who had no intentions other than to follow his passion. He starts from an ordinary childhood like Lincoln or Escobar, commits certain mistakes like any other while in a ghetto gang and realizes at some point. It is in not repeating the mistakes that makes him who he really is. He truly believes in his guts and never gives up. Society has a way of helping him with education and money if he is a rare situation. Parents may not realize that the kid is gonna be on his own and challenge the mediocrity someday. They may not give an unconditional love until he proves himself in the society. Is this life of caring someone based on his capabilities worth it? I don't think so, you can love a person for who he is and not judge his convictions. It is just the environment they grow up, that makes everyone behave differently.

What makes some one different from a famous or infamous persona? Why should there be incentives all the time if you are good and confident at what you do? Are we not looking up to some one and always trying to imitate, sacrificing your own thoughts and reality? This is a very general statement which can apply to every walk of our lives. If we sit back and think about all the celebrities, they have one thing in common- to do whatever they love. Even if we truly believe in ourselves, we can all be celebrities in our own world. Now, this comes with a cost. You would have to be independent, learn all the things that you need for your career, get exposed to all the different things out there in the world, make it a habit to always try and enjoy what you work and the worst part is to deal with people, building your credibility. If you feel that you cannot handle working your job for a long time, then you definitely are not worth trying it. This is difficult but needs some perseverance to try and understand if the difficulty is inherent within the work or if it's testing your limits.

There is no reason why you have to be afraid of anyone. You need not have to compare yourself with others. This is not to say that you don't care about others, it's just that you take inspiration and don't have to over stress. Needless to say that the more you get exposed to the world the clearer your perspectives become. This way of new learning and exposure everyday could make you feel the worth of life for a better living. We always try to push things onto someone and not consciously think about them. Let's say the A/C in your car failed, you could just give it to a mechanic or do some basic diagnostics by going online and looking through forums. When you give it to a mechanic, you rely on him and expect that he is honest. Otherwise, you can see if you can buy some stuff and do whatever is possible before giving it to him to take care of the complicated things. We not only learn some new things about the car and with practice at some point, you can also take care of the entire repairs if you have the necessary tools.  

I totally agree with my colleague's take on Religion. It's similar to the car repair case, when you believe in religion, it gets worse if you blindly push things onto god and never really care about how much effort you're consciously putting in. I used to believe in god until recently but, in retrospect, he didn't help me for sure at bad times. Some times religion makes you do what you never wanted to do in your life. I am perfectly fine being a vegetarian until my parents force me to eat meat as part of some traditional festival. 

Science is an art and it's not too difficult to understand. So are other arts and disciplines. If we work the best, spend time relaxing, know what we are doing, explore things, not worry about petty things, then we will definitely be our own stars. The best belief you can count is, after all, on you. There is never a single chance that can go wrong if you are in the driver seat. Everything becomes normal in life including death. Lives of Neil Armstrong and 50 cent (after the deaths of biggie and tupac) are perfect cases. It's hard to digest but such is life.

About me:

I grew up in a ghetto like environment, had tough times with my education. I graduated from IIT Madras and now am in UT Austin for my masters in mechanical engineering. I believe in a free speech society and that's why I am here to get some inputs from different kinds of people.